Thoughts of the day...

Sometimes it feels like I am running out of time to do all the things I want to do. You might role your eyes at this notion and remind me that I am merely 22 years old, but these years were a blink and I am told that each day time only passes all the quicker. When shall I be a scholar, a best friend, an activist and anthropologist, an artist, and a business woman. Not to mention a daughter, a world traveler, an entrepreneur, a peacemaker, a revolutionary and a writer. Does this string ring of contradictions? Am I selfish to seek such a bounty of independently intricate identities? Would someone say, “She wants it all”? Because I do. But quite frankly, in this moment, I struggle to fathom how I can simultaneously be all these things. While I am not ready to surrender the possibility that I can, neither can I shed the perception that some things must be pushed aside, at least for now. But what I ask? I certainly cannot disregard my role as a daughter, a friend, a sister, but neither can I cease to be any of these other identifiers. At the end of the day I am exhausted being me, but I would rather be tried and true than compromised and rested. I suppose that drained is a small price to pay for authenticity. I can imagine nothing else…Some people make-sense, while others make-believe, and then there are those of us who are plagued by the perception that farcical ambitions are the only available to us. I am not the kind of girl who dreams of possibilities, but impossibilities, and I pursue them with such unrelenting passion that I occasionally manage to transform mirages into nearly tangible oases.